I LOVED the way I felt and was inspired to keep on going. I was getting bored with only using our elliptical machine by that point, so we signed up for membership at the YMCA. The Y is great for someone as ADD as myself, I can do a different workout every day! Yay!!!
My OCD side really started getting the best of me by May. I only missed 6 days of working out all month. I worked out no less than an hour but most day I was at the gym for close to two hours. I lost like almost nothing that month, so I pissed off half of June because I was just sick as shit of pushing myself so hard with little to show for it.
The last week of June a friend of mine told me about a sprint level triathlon that she was thinking about doing to help her lose weight. I felt like that was just the type of goal I needed to push me forward too, so I signed my fat arse up too!
The rest of the summer on into early fall I spent either on vacation or training for the Tri. I still didn't lose that much weight but I toned up a lot. The toning up helped me drop a size in my clothes and feeling so much better about myself.
The Tri was the first weekend in October. It was a beautful day. So nice and warm but not too hot to race. The race was challenging for me but I finished it damn it!
I was so happy to have pushed myself to accomplish an athletic event. I must now tell you that I hit Olive Garden for lunch after my Tri and had a difficult time following a healthy lifestyle for some time after the race. In fact, by Thanksgiving I had stopped working out all together and pretty much ate anything I wanted through New Years. It's January 2008 now. I had gained five pounds during the holidays and was starting to feel like a blob. I recommitted myself by the second week of January. I journaled my food everyday, tracked my calories and worked out 5 days a week again. The weight started melting off again.
I signed up for another Biggest Loser challenge with my moms group in March. I am happy to say that I came in third place! I lost 14lbs during the contest and was down a little more than twenty pounds from Christmas.
So, now it's May and I wear size Medium or a size 8. I LOVE wearing cute clothes again. I'm so tired of frumpy mommy clothes. I am looking for style now. I'm on top of the world! Why is it so easy to fall when a person is on top? That's what happened to me again. So, I just went wild eating anything that I could get my hands on. I was sick of writing everythin down. I just wanted to eat it all. It was only suppose to be for a week. Kind of an eating vacation. It made since to me at the time so I had a GREAT time stuffing my face.
Well, now it's the first of July and I'm still taking my eating break. I've gained 10 lbs since my BL contest and feel bad about myself for being so weak. Why do I keep repeating this pattern? I work hard as shit to lose the weight only to quit for a while and gain some back. It's like two steps forward one step back for me. It's getting really irritating.
Anyway, this chick is recommitting herself this month. I will write down all food starting tomorrow and start weighing in at least once a week. I still need to lose 20 pounds before TTC this fall. I want to be a skinny preggo momma this time instead of a plus-sized preggo momma.
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